The resolution engine continues to forge ahead on full blast through sunny days and stormy nights. The majority of the train follows loyally around the bends and somehow manages to lift its weight to get over peaks and out of the valleys. I absolutely assure you the challenges continue to be conquered and tracked. As of mid-April I have successfully more than sixty resolution completions.
“So where are the stories?”
The purpose of this blog after all is to create the accountability I need (having acknowledged my self-disciplinary weakness) to make 169 differences in my own life and the lives of others.
My body, mind and soul are the engines that power and drive everything I am and do. Respectively, the train-cars that follow are filled with the routines of my daily life and the tasks of my enduring projects. Each carries its own stories and demands varying and vast amounts of energy.
Like a survival hierarchy, basic things tend to come first: eating, sleeping and the dreaded work I’m financially required to attend to. For some people the train stops here. But I, no, not I, the world has tasked me with something bigger. There are train-cars loaded with projects, learning goals, scholarships applications, resolution challenges and achievements of every kind. Each one is constantly being pumped full of conquering energy.
And then of course there are those heavy, dark cars at the end of the rails carrying the weight of self-doubt, over-analytical anxiety and unfinished business. Despite their emptiness, their crushing weight is capable and more than willing to derail the train if given a chance.
As I spread myself too thin some of the cars begin experience a lag. The farther behind I get in reporting to blog story responsibilities the more it feels as though there is a larger malfunction. Train cars of hope and creativity are overridden by those miserably hungry dark cars. My mind spins to catch up but ends swallowed up by over strategizing or rationalizing. And then nothing.
Clearly something needs to change.
Presently, my brain insists that a chronological order presentation is unequivocally important in the continuation of this project. Hence, the back log of challenges that I struggle with every time I look at my computer has sadly kept me repeating my mistakes and unable to move forward.
The only truth that allows me to escape from this dangerous derailing is not order, but results!
So in an erratic attempt to overcome stagnant fear, I’m throwing my natural disposition aside to bring to you 14 blog posts in 14 days! (In complete disorder... clearly I’m losing it, what a travesty, surely no one can handle it :O.)
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!
*Yes, it’s an actual challenge submitted and I could not be more thankful. I need this. I need your help. It is what accountability is all about.
Random Challenge #3 for you Kari: blog every day for 2 weeks.
It's opposite of no internet for a week. Your welcome :) haha
I’d also like to point out that this message followed an earlier plea of a very inspirational nature :) It’s absolutely brilliant and I love it and THANK YOU Maite for always pushing me to be better.
Please suh, may I have some more?
I realize you're busy traipsing across the country and such (and wtf, traipsing is actually a word?), but you haven't written in weeks you bum.
So have no fear then as the ThirteenSquared train maintains its course bringing to light more self-awareness, introspection and lessons than I ever envisioned. My little project has become a true outlet for self-expression and even a bit of public therapy if allow it to be so.
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